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Okay, so my issue with this place (perhaps life) is obvious. There was a huge amount of change and unfortunately I am left with dealing with it. I just plugged in my headphones to my ipod, and started listening to "Face To Face." Who like "Save Ferris" have called it quits. The song launched me back in time. To a happier place, which at the time seemed like just a place. The place Cal Poly Pomona, it was when Face to Face came to Cal Poly to play for BroncoFest. It was awesome. There was a pit, my friends were all there, no one had kids, or jobs (I'm meaning like 40 hour a week cubicle life jobs), or lived 425 miles away. We were all there, yelling, screaming, pitting, singing, falling. You name it we were doing it. It was awesome, to think that not more than about 3 months later this band would call it quits? Or that probably 6 months later one friend would be married, have a child, and off in colorado, another friend would have a child, and be preparing to move out to ohio. And of course I would be up here in nerdville. Amazing. You just don't know where life is going to take you. I guess from certain perspectives I'm quite lucky. Some people never move out of their little town. I had an opportunity to stretch my wings. It's just those soo hard to deal with circumstances, like making new friends. I've almost changed from the person that I once was to this other reserved person, that is scared to speak up in meetings and is terrified of my manager. Well here's a good little picture I found!!!! It puts a smile on my face. :-D

Wow, my first show in quite a long time. I saw this emo group called "Coheed & Cambria". Unfortunately all it reminds me of, is in fact the loss of good friends, and friendly places (comfortable and familar venues). It is kind of like when you get rid of your first car, the next car just isn't quite the same. Usually it's better because it is a new car (usually). But in the end it doesn't quite feel the same, I guess I'll have to just figure it out and make myself get comfortable. For the most part I'm doing just that. I already bought tickets to "The Get Up Kids". The coolest part of living up here I'd have to say is the city. It is just so breath taking to see all of the houses at night. The look kinda like white christmas lights, all lit up in rows upon rows on the hill tops. I wish I had taken a picture. I think my goal this weekend is to find something new to do in the city, and administer linux boxen.

Okay a long time ago I found a great website where you could make your own south park figures. It was just awesome! So I decided to post some of the pictures I made! Here's me:

Here's the gf:

Just for the record I really don't think me or the gf really looks like this.

So I went to applebee's up here, and my lucky ass gets food poising. I mean come on, first my leg, now food poising? I guess i'm just a lucky guy! Oh well I'm listening to The New Amsterdams' new album, I like it alot they are keeping their quality up, and I think that's just awesome. Anyways, I guess things just take time in general. I missed those times with my close friends, but I think that those times are what I cherish the most, obiviously along with other moments. But perhaps something else in the future will compare to those moments, but part of me hopes not. So I won't forget those times. There's soo many!!! Perhaps I should try to remember them and blog them out? I'll attempt to do just that.

I'm thinking of getting my passport, and a 250 gig hard drive. Hrmmm...what else should I get? :-D

With a build deadline it just seems like the amount of time people are willing to stay later has really increased. I also found some cool pictures during lunch.

Seems like my concentration of enzymes in my blood have gone down, the doctor just gave me a call letting me know of that, and to not do any exercise. He also mentioned that I'll be receiving another lab slip in the mail that I'll be using in a week to check my enzyme level again in my blood. Well it seems like the worst has passed.

Yesterday, when I got out of bed I felt nothing but pain! I decided this pain just isn't right! So I went to my HMO Kaiser and I scheduled an appointment with a doctor. I had to leave about 45 minutes in advance cause I had to walk like an old man to get to my appointment on the 4th floor on time. So Dr. Lin hooked me up with some Vicodin (woohoo) for the pain of course. I took one last night and I felt no pain. :-) He then said I should go down to the lab and give some blood for a test to see how badly my quadriceps had been inflamed. From what I could gather when a muscle becomes inflamed it gives off these enzymes which could lead to kidney failure. So he said I should go through three IV's and then go down to the lab and take another blood test to see where the level of enzymes in my system are at. I do feel a whole lot better today! I can actually bend my right leg! And I got some Vicodin out of it!!!

Amazing how the days, weeks, months, years just fly. I can remember when I was a freshman in college. It's crazy, I would've never thought I'd end up out in the middle of nowhere. Two of my closest friends are now dad's, and one of them got married and moved out to colorado. Amazing isn't it? For those younger folk out there, live it up and don't look back till years later. So many great times, to look back on now. I hear a one song and it like takes me back in time, soo crazy. I miss the old crew, and the times we had together. It was part of essential living back then, to hang out and do nothing. Cram for tests till the break of dawn and watch the sun rise. Now all of use have to figure out what to do with ourselves. At times I feel like i've turned into a cold person. But perhaps I'm just becomming more focused with my goals. I've almost become less social, mostly due to the fact that I really don't know anyone, and probably because I don't want to make friends, and then leave them. From what i've heard the old gang is pretty much non-existent. Well I guess there could be really huge events where people could show up and put their problems aside and show up and have a blast. That's what i'm hoping for. As for now I hope all of you out there really really cherish those moments with those that you hold as good friends, because you just never know when it will all be ripped from you. :-)

The Marathon is on February 1st, 2004. The website is here. There is also the San Francisco Marathon, the website is here.

Okay so I decided three weeks before the Huntington Beach Marathon that I'd like to run the half marathon. So I ran 2.5 miles yesterday and decided I should try a spin cycle class. Of course I knew I would get my ass kicked at the spin cycle class, but I didn't think it would be all that bad. It was! I currently cannot bend my right leg, with out this pain.