Just got out of a this meeting that was about an hour and a half long. It involved everyone that participates in our product. I'm not so sure if I'd want to be a part of a group that handles personal interaction like this. Very very odd. Everyone thinks their way of thinking is the best way. Granted everyone is bias to their own way of doing things, but sometimes in a "teamwork" environment. People try to just dominate others. Sad, most of the engineers don't see what it is really what "management" is really trying to say. They are saying "You're my biatch do as I say, and you won't get fired." How fucking lame can people be in a environment full of egos and knowledgable people. I wonder if software can be written with plain normal people and still be productive, and satisfy the customer. I wonder if life can be viewed as a huge process. But from my previous experiences, having some sort of process is better than no process what so ever. Perhaps I'm at the other end of the spectrum, or what I'm experiencing now is the "extreme" of having a process. It's basically control, so they have these documents that tell you how to organize your code, in code reviews depending on your monderator they decide to tell you that whatever algorithm you decided to use is wrong, do it like the rest of the software engineers. So you basically look how other people have done things in the software source and you use the same thing over and over again. There is no science to this kind of work, especially when the process rules your thinking. You almost become the process, your job is to ensure the process is upheld, and that you implement everything like everyone else. There is no "I" in team. There's just the process. I wonder if kobe bryant would be the star he is, if there was a process in basketball that said you must pass the ball at least 10 times, before attempting a shot. And when you slam dunk you can only do it one way. If you do it some weird funky way, you get warned, and if you do it again, you get kicked out of the game. I wonder what kind of player Kobe would be then, maybe Kobe would kiss more ass and then he'd be allowed to maybe put a little twist on things. With a process you shed your perspective on things, you shed your knowledge, you shed your style of doing things, and you conform to the way some person decided to define style, and how one person decided to get the job done. There is no individuality, there is no you, there is only reason to live, and that's the process. This has to be the extreme. For some reason I'd like to think there is some reason why I always have to be experiencing these things. Perhaps that's part of being human, when things just get far to out of control, and we can't figure out why....we decide that we must in some way or another decide to "define" it, or put a meaning to it.
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