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Looks like I couldn't book a meeting for tomorrow! Doh! Oh well, looks like I have to postpone the meeting till Monday!

Ugh just got out of a meeting where they told me my code is basically shit! You've got to hate that. Then where I tried to innovate somewhere, they told me not to, and go and look how someone else has done it. It's a bunch of crap!!!! What kind of shit is this? I can't wait till I pay off my credit debt, and save up some money so I can get the hell out of this shit hole, and start my own company!!!!

So i borrowed this book from a good friend of a friend...i'll call him legend22. Great book, I think i'm going to purchase a copy for my parents and myself.ISBN: 0-399-14446-3The Handwriting on the WallChange Happens:They Keep Moving the CheeseAnticipate Change:Get Ready for the Cheese to MoveMonitor Change:Smell the Cheese Often So You Know When It Is Getting OldAdapt to Change Quickly:The Quicker You Let Go of Old Cheese, The Sooner You Can Enjoy New CheeseChange:Move with the CheeseEnjoy Change!:Savor the Adventure and the Taste of New Cheese!Be Ready to Quickly Change Again and Again:They Keep Moving the Cheese

This front end standalone app is really cool get it here. It also has this cool "What music am I listening to" feature.

You gotta love making phone calls at 5:00am. They are always exciting, and full of random things. :-) And when you can't sleep. What can you do? So I started listening to Guilt Show. I really like the track "Holy Roman." I think that's going in my running playlist.The lyrics are below:Holy Roman LyricsRoad map is a bitter pill scene stinks of a double deal a good front like the devil will yourEyes on the prize come clean like you said you would make peace like I know you could heroesDon't do any good with tears in their eyesFight the good fight maintain the trend just look me in the eyes and say the world's notGoing to endTake stock in the master plan place bets on an empty hand empire has a leg to standHoly Roman style poison from a holy grail blind faith doesn't make the sale landmines on theRighteous trail march rank and filePatriotic friend stabbing friend you'll look me in the eyes and say the world's not going to endJust make me a promise that the world's not going to endWill you save us?Day 14: 2 mintues biatch!

The grind, what a bunch of crap. And it looks like it's going to rain again! Yesterday it was nice, sunny, warm. Today it's cold, windy, and looks like there's going to be rain!!!!!! Uggghhh!!!!Day 13: puahahahaha.

There is so much to blog about. The crowd was very young, or at least it seemed like it. TGUK played some old skool songs so it was great! I couldn't believe the venue, it was soo up close and personal. It's weird going to a show by yourself. It only made me appreciate even more my commrades from back home. This was a normal pass time, attending a show, running around like a school of fish in the pit, singing along and throwing shit (usually water bottles, or a sample cassette tape) at the band playing. Unfortunately all of the people at the venue were lame, they didn't pit, they didn't throw shit, everyone more or less just bobbed their heads and sang along...but even at that; most people weren't singing. Kind of sucks. Nothing like a show in LA, but despite lacking the experience I used to get in LA....it was original enough...so I deem it simply a show in SF. I think what made it more apparent that I'm becomming an old man is the fact that after the show all of these people were in their own heards of friends going back to their cars to go home. I could over hear them all excited about the show they just attended. We used to hit up In and Out after almost every show, or Denny's. That's what we did. So I'd hear all of these "kids" (whoa i'm calling them "kids")....err people just being so happy and alive. It just sent me back to almost every moment I experienced with my "heard" of friends after every show. Playing hacky sack, talking the shit (we used to do that). As I weaved between heards I'd hear something that they would say that I could totally relate to. Wanting to say oh ya that was awesome, blah blah. Nope no one to mention that to, as I hurrily made it to my car, and drove home. But the music was great. The music will always be great, even after the artists, my friends, and myself are long gone. It will be our mark in time, I'm sure i'll be listening to this music if I ever decide to have children, and they'll look at me the way I look at my parents when they listen and talk about John Denver, or James Taylor. Music signifys a period in time for most of us, unless you play classical music and are hooked on jazz i'm sure even that has some significance. In a time period for ones life. All in all I guess what could definitely be determined is the fact that I miss "what was." And everytime I experience something that reminds me of "what was," I can't help but let my minds wonder and think about those times. We had a long run, so long that it's length in time was good enough for a repretable tv series. My experiences with my "heard" of friends are better than any article I own, or almost anyother experience i've ever had. If any of you guys read this shit, I'm glad it was with you, and you have to know who you are! I'm sure we'll have some simlar times one day, I just wish it was more frequent, and definitely wished I knew when it would happen again so I can anxiously look forward to it.

Well well, at work again, it's gonna be a short day, cause I got to fight the traffic to get up into the city.Day 12: Whatzzzz Up.....

TGUKWoohoo, I'm finally going to a show by myself. Ought to be a fun time. All I can think of is "The Pit". I hope I can somehow sneak my camera into the place. I'd like to take some shots, and post them in my pics area. The last time I saw this band was before they released Eudora. It was when I was still in college, and I went to see it with a couple of friends, we got off of working the "Fair" early to go see them at the House of Blues in Hollywood. That venue is still my favorite place to see a band. That is once again another problem with being up here, I don't know any of the venues. So on one hand it's rather adventurous., and on the other it's quite intimidating. Doh I just found out that The Ataris are playing in Anaheim tomorrow. Ugh, sucks being 425 miles away from that crap, I would've went and scalped tickets!!

I can't believe i'm at work on a saturday. But I'm here. Just finished talking to the borg guy about the shit I'm writing for him. What a bunch of shit.Oh well.

Day 11: work, work, work....

I just looked outside, and I didn't even know that it was raining! Whoa!

This is amazingly easy to read in xml and write it out to a file, check it outthe following code snippet written in C#.

string someXml = "world";XmlDocument dataDoc = new XmlDocument();dataDoc.LoadXml(someXml);dataDoc.Save("C:\\helloworld.xml");

See, cool ain't it?

Whoa now I know why most stoners like Bob Marley, i'm at work and I feel high. It's awesome. It makes be feel so relaxed. It's great.Day 10: woo hoo......We are the borg.

So Visual Studio .NET sucks big donkey ballz. Oh man this thing is soo buggy, I don't know why companies pay all of this money for a buggy IDE? I'd seriously much rather be using XEMACS, and a CLI.Day 9: I'm being assimilated.

Using RSS / PHP and cron to hook up my website to have news and cool stuff that I like. It's like my own custom newspaper, from the web. Check it here I gotta get this working! Speaking of work......it's time to go home.

Before I left the apartment today, I came out to the living room and saw my roommate, he had his morning paper spread all about the futon and my leather arm chair in the living room. I was extremely mad. He kept muttering psuedo friendly things such as good morning, and see ya. I kept my mouth shut and didn't say a word. I just left extremely frustrated.

Before I left the apartment today, I came out to the living room and saw my roommate, he had his morning paper spread all about the futon and my leather arm chair in the living room. I was extremely mad. He kept muttering psuedo friendly things such as good morning, and see ya. I kept my mouth shut and didn't say a word. I just left extremely frustrated.Day 8: Whew....

Found this Mar Rover blog thought it was funny.

So I went running again on saturday, I did roughly 9.5 miles. Not my goal which was 14 but, I got a late start and the weather turned from nice and sunny to cold and windy really quick. So I was shivering cold instantly. Oh wellDay 7: Doh....bad allergy medicine.

Just got back from Guitar Center...... Very tempting. I've always wanted a guitar, I figured it could be better than anything else I do. Which always ends up in some weird situation. I probably could do the least indirect harm to people with it. Unless of course I sing...hahaha. So I got home..and I find my neighbor and girlfriend on my leather arm chair. My first reaction was to just fly off the handle. Then I just said hi, and went to my room. The thing that pisses me off is that she was sitting on the arm of the chair. It wasn't so much as him just sitting there, as much as it was her sitting on the arm of the chair. So frustrating, as soon as I got into my room, I called some guy that replied to my criag's list post. I then started to do some apartment hunting, and successfully found a place. And now it's just nickels and dimes.

Amazing..now I can finally start working on getting some cool backgrounds for this site. Now that you can see them that is! Sweet.

More B.S. in my life. Can it get any more weird? Who knows. Eventually all of this will be worth it.Day 6: huh?

Just got out of a this meeting that was about an hour and a half long. It involved everyone that participates in our product. I'm not so sure if I'd want to be a part of a group that handles personal interaction like this. Very very odd. Everyone thinks their way of thinking is the best way. Granted everyone is bias to their own way of doing things, but sometimes in a "teamwork" environment. People try to just dominate others. Sad, most of the engineers don't see what it is really what "management" is really trying to say. They are saying "You're my biatch do as I say, and you won't get fired." How fucking lame can people be in a environment full of egos and knowledgable people. I wonder if software can be written with plain normal people and still be productive, and satisfy the customer. I wonder if life can be viewed as a huge process. But from my previous experiences, having some sort of process is better than no process what so ever. Perhaps I'm at the other end of the spectrum, or what I'm experiencing now is the "extreme" of having a process. It's basically control, so they have these documents that tell you how to organize your code, in code reviews depending on your monderator they decide to tell you that whatever algorithm you decided to use is wrong, do it like the rest of the software engineers. So you basically look how other people have done things in the software source and you use the same thing over and over again. There is no science to this kind of work, especially when the process rules your thinking. You almost become the process, your job is to ensure the process is upheld, and that you implement everything like everyone else. There is no "I" in team. There's just the process. I wonder if kobe bryant would be the star he is, if there was a process in basketball that said you must pass the ball at least 10 times, before attempting a shot. And when you slam dunk you can only do it one way. If you do it some weird funky way, you get warned, and if you do it again, you get kicked out of the game. I wonder what kind of player Kobe would be then, maybe Kobe would kiss more ass and then he'd be allowed to maybe put a little twist on things. With a process you shed your perspective on things, you shed your knowledge, you shed your style of doing things, and you conform to the way some person decided to define style, and how one person decided to get the job done. There is no individuality, there is no you, there is only reason to live, and that's the process. This has to be the extreme. For some reason I'd like to think there is some reason why I always have to be experiencing these things. Perhaps that's part of being human, when things just get far to out of control, and we can't figure out why....we decide that we must in some way or another decide to "define" it, or put a meaning to it.

I was actually watching TV last night. I couldn't believe it. Well I was watching the dave chapelle show so I guess that counts. Out of the many commericals I viewed, I saw this one for this album by Dashboard for this MTV Album covers album. Looks like Dashboard covered some R.E.M. songs and then the lead singer from R.E.M. sings Hands Down? WTF! Weird....but it might be good. Now i'm thinking what to do with, either getting it from iTunes or getting it on CD or just buy the DVD. I think Vagrant has a deal with apple cause I saw that TGUK were using Garage Band to master their tracks.

When I woke up this morning I couldn't open my eye cause I think I have some kind of pollen or spore or something in my eye. It was itching and watery soo bad yesterday. So I went to the store and bought some allergy eye drops. I think the eye drops are working. We'll see what happens.Day 5: it's day 5 already?

So I haven't had the chance to rip and encode my Guilt Show cd, so I brought it to work to listen to it in CD format. When I insterted the disc, it popped up to goto one of these "secret websites." And this is one of the many reasons why I'll still go out and buy a cd for an artist I like. Most of the good music artists hook up their fans with cool shit when they buy the CD. Although I did not buy it brand new so the money didnt' quite goto them. Oh well, I did go out and buy their CD. I'm wondering what bands will do when they go to strictly distributing in MP3, or some other digital file format. I think there should be a plugin or something that looks into a digital file and some how uses some part as a seed (key), and unlocks a website or something.

You know what that means!!!! Green beer,and people drunk off their asses. Gotta love it.Day 4:One day at a time.

I'm barely leaving work now. Doh!

Day 3:Not bad at all...except for this deadline.

Right now I'm listening to Dashboard Confessional's "A Mark - A Mission ..... ( that album).... "If you can't leave it Be" is the track. This track is really upbeat, and might make for a good running song. Might need to make my own track list soon with a marathon list. Of course it has to be stratigically ordered!

Sneezing, stuffy nose, and more! Fun times!Day2: Seems like I'm alright.

Listening to techno is fun! Okay just kidding but it sure beats listening to the ramblings of this office. At this exact moment, I feel very homesick. I should not be feeling like this, but for some odd reason I do. I miss the fellas, and home. So far the friends i've made up here are so impersonal, it's like starting from scratch. In no way do I think that the people i've consistently hung out with now are any different than the college friends I spent so much time with. They are great people and I completely enjoy their fellowship when they extend it. It's just that whole comfort zone issue, I guess some people are better at handling it vs. just plainly dealing with it. Perhaps I should strive to not deal but handle things. So where is wolf man, and puto head, and the china man, and of course who could forget fish. They are all off on journeys of their own, I have no idea if they care for meeting up. I'm sure china man, and fish wouldn't mind, but as for wolf and puto, are busy I guess it's just another phase in all of our lives.

Day 1: I'm here!

Life just got less exciting. :-(I actually feel like eating a bullet. :-DGotta love just being alive at moments like these.

So I got this new toy to help me train for this marathon that i've decided to sign up for. Here's a picture of my new workout buddy.I'm also going to be doing the 5k run at Big Sur. I've been working on the layout for my marathon workout blog/webpage. I hope to also write a plugin for movable type or write my own PHP web application, that takes the XML file output from this workout device and somehow uses it in the blog/webpage. My hopes are to effectively track my workouts as well as how I felt during the workout, what I ate that day etc. I've never done a marathon before, honestly I've never really liked running all that much. Except when playing basketball. I think the longest run i've ever done is something like 8 miles. But in three months i'm going to have to somehow complete 26.2 miles, in at least 7 hours. The "at least 7 hours" situation is because at this marathon if you don't make the 12.7 mile mark within 4 hours of the start time, you get diverted down this 3 mile road to the finish line. I figure if I can somehow finish with a time similar to Puff Daddy's time of 04:14:54. I think if that guy can do it, why can't I? Unfortunately I'm not doing it for the kids, but I'm doing it for myself.

Well it seems that my latest streak of not watching any tv when comming home is really paying off. I mean look at the progress of this site! It's comming along just fine. I feel really good about it. I'm almost within the right layout and at least the color scheme and the position of things is almost there. Who knows perhaps I can start getting really effecient at this soon. Oh well it looks like NASA's effects on human's and space travel said there's no "show stoppers." This is good for a mission to the moon and then to mars! They also stated some great already known information! I really hope all of those normal people in the world realize the importance of something like this......"This commitment will pay off in space and on Earth. The spin-offs from spaceflight research and technology have made possible our lifestyle on Earth in every area, including health," Mary Ann Frey Aerospace Medical Expert.Check out the article here There is also a cool playlist of what the JPL scientist and engineers are listening to on each Mars Day, or what those smart guys at JPL call a "sol."

So why are there people that would rather not do things spontaneously, than to just stay home and polish their most priced possession? I can't quite figure that out. Okay under extremely stressful circumstances I suppose people should go home and polish that "Bad Boy." Perhaps it's some kind of problem; be it financial, or whatever, why don't people step outside their bubble to experience different things? I have not a single clue. Yes, we all do have free choice, but when you just go home, that's where the line should be drawn in the sand. Essentially people would be faking themselves out if they choose the same choice every time, and still thought they were taking full advantage of free choice. What I hate the most is when other people assume that another individual wouldn't want to do something, and plainly leave them out of it. Now understand normal circumstances are taken into consideration, and there does exist those times where utter brain dead things happen. But to just leave people out cause someone were to assume another wouldn't want to go is just not nice, that almost forces people to go home and polish. Ah I know what you're thinking...perhaps it's that comfort zone, most people never like to travel outside of it, and once they've found a good spot they definitely don't like to expand it at all. Sad, sad, sad. Life is really far to short to be acting that way. Maybe a prayer will work? Probably only an experience that could be somehow manufactured by the almighty (if that exists) can change some people's minds! But there's no need to go into more useless religious/spiritual ranting. So remember if you could be doing something other than polishing your dildo, do what the Nike solgan says, and "Just do it!" Don't think about all of your options, just go, and do it. How hard is that? If you can do it, just do it.

I think this movie was way over the top. There is no need for it's violent, graphic nature. Unfortunately it seems that in order to even put a dent into this jacked up society we need to portray events from the past with violence, gore, and that "shock and awe." I also have a theory that the catholic church was behind this film. Think about the current events with the catholic church, it's such a coincidence that they needed this kind of "pick me up," at this point in time. Nothing like keeping the masses in check! I hate religion, and the rituals and so called "fellowship" that comes with it. My experiences with it are quite annoying. Why do I need to goto church, and hear some fool that probably drives a better car than me re-interpret some scripture out of a book that has been translated a million times? But remember to help thy neighboor, and please don't forget to put some money into that dish! The pastor needs to make his car payment too! Call me crazy! But come on.

I have faith, I know that everytime I get into my car that it will start! Why put more error into the already possibly flawed system of christianity, with more interpretations of things by man. I mean sure we should help eachother get educated about religion if people are willing and truly making that choice for themselves. Then comes the topic of evangelism. Those so called holy rollers. Seriously where do they get off? I think they turn more people away from the Lord than bringing them to it. I hate evangelism, why push your beliefs on others? Is that really fair? Why not through your personal actions just be the way you are? And through your actions you can show them the way? Sure you got that one person to suppositely say yes I believe! If I held a gun to your head and told you to give me your wallet, then dance around like william hung would you? Honestly I hope there was at least enough good to balance the negative that came out of this movie. I'm sure there was some honest good done. Perhaps I'm just a perfectionist looking for just the good and none of the bad? Draw your own conclusion.

I think this movie was way over the top. There is no need for it's violent, graphic nature. Unfortunately it seems that in order to even put a dent into most people's brains we need to portray events from the past with violence, gore, and that "shock and awe." I also have a theory that the catholic church was behind this film. Think about the current events with the catholic church, it's such a coincidence that they needed this kind of "pick me up," at this point in time. Nothing like keeping the masses in check! I hate religion, and the rituals and so called "fellowship" that comes with it. My experiences with it are quite annoying. Why do I need to goto church, and hear some fool that probably drives a better car than me re-interpret some scripture out of a book that has been translated a million times? But remember to help thy neighboor, and please don't forget to put some money into that dish! The pastor needs to make his car payment too! Call me crazy! But come on. But i'm just suppose to have faith! I mean I have faith everytime I get into my car that it will start! Why put more error into the already possibly flawed system of christianity, with more interpretations of things by man. I mean sure we should help eachother get educated about religion if people are willing and truly making that choice for themselves. Then comes the topic of evangelism. Those so called holy rollers. Seriously where do they get off? I think they turn more people away from the Lord than bringing them to it. I hate evangelism, why push your beliefs on others? Is that really fair? Why not through your personal actions just be the way you are? And through your actions you can show them the way? Sure you got that one person to suppositely say yes I believe! If I held a gun to your head and told you to give me your wallet, then dance around like william hung would you? Honestly I hope there was at least enough good to balance the negative that came out of this movie. I'm sure there was some honest good done. Perhaps I'm just a perfectionist looking for just the good and none of the bad? Who knows.

Alright so I've been using that new Monster iPod charger/ FM broadcasting thing. I think it works extremely well. I feel it's one of the perfect accessories! It's definetlely a must have for the car! It's easy to switch stations at a push of a button! And with 8 choices it's a lot better than the previous unit I had which I used relgiously called the iRock.