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Yo, time to unplug, i'm out!

Yes I'm at work...tieing up a few loose ends and letting certain people know what is going on with my last task, before I step into my new job.

If I could just say, "body" shut down, that would be the perfect way to describe how I feel right now. I can't sleep cause I'm soo stressed out about work. I just can't figure this out.

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G-Unit would stand for "Gangsta Unit" where only the hardest mutha f**kas can hang with. Where ganstaism's are only accepted and everyone is cut down to a little biatch. And of course our anthem is Roxanne.

Alright I'm mostly an Anti Microsoft kind of person, but I've been completely taken by this application they've created! They have got something here, they really do. It's called "OneNote" and basically what it does is allow you to just store data on a "virtual" piece of paper, just as you would with a pen and paper. Where was this application when I was in college? This would have saved my arse, not to mention time.

Buddy Christ helping me out in Debug Mode....Buddy Christ telling me it's not good to use IM.....

Check out this crazy Thai Boxing video my friend sent me.

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So I was walking towards a colleague's cubical, and I run into the "office milf". I say hello, and ask that all too common question everyone asks on Monday, "How was your weekend?". She responds, "Uneventful". At this point I feel like that one kid in American Pie with Stifler's mom, but wake up in just enough time to hear her ask, "How about yours?". Internally I was thinking, should I mention that I awoke Saturday morning covered in my own puke, and that I had absolutely no recollection as to what I was doing, or how I got there? (Thanks to two very cool peeps, one of which is family...for helping me out.) I then replied, "Sleep." She smiled at me, and stated, "That's something!".

Happy Friday!!!!

I sense that something is up, and I can't put my finger on it. There is a possibility that I'm being overly sensitive on this whole situation, but.....I dunno, just what I sense. That's all.

So i've decided that the confines of my room are just well, boring. So today is the day of change. SO in light of all of the excitment with work, I ventured out to borders and hung out, which in turn gave me the "excuse" to check out what it's like to use a tmobile hotspot. Kind of convienent. Actually kind of like it alot, cause i'm sitting outside (for once) out on the balcony of Borders at Santana Row, typing this entry right now. Very very cool. I almost feel like that one scene in "The Net" where Sandra Bullock is out on the beach accessing the internet and coding on the beach. Man she's hott, in that all so unreachable "hollywood star" sense. I wish there were some decent women in this valley, at least to look at!!! I'd never knew that one day i'd be one of those people that would be sitting here pounding away on my laptop while other converse with eachother about the subtleties of life. I remember those days, when I planned on going to a coffee house like Starbucks, and telling myself i'm going to do my homework, instead i'm sitting there just yapping away. Many people seem to do that same exact thing. Which really takes me back to those days. Instead i'm hurrily trying to get csde mode installed on my laptop's xemacs, so I can see what the mono project has in store for us with beta 1.0. Oh well one of the people seems to be cleaning up the patio here, and I think that means it's time for me to pack up and go!!!

Meeting was 1.5 hours, out of that entire time there was about 15 minutes worth of moderately informative discussion. Completely flips me out!

Yet another meeting is about 17 minutes away from beginning. It's interesting to hear the fear in peoples voices. I mean I think these lead people are SO insecure, or full of themselves that they have no idea what they are doing psychologically to the group members. It's like they are instilling fear in their minds, or something. Perhaps it's more like breeding ignorance, but instead breeding their arrogance? Very weird. This is a interesting specimen for my thoughts on how companies and groups work. This is bad when leaders don't understand what kind of power they have, yet they blindly just keep doing things that only hurt moral for the group members. Funny thing is the collective here, hasn't realized that the other group in which they "talk the shit" on has also scheduled a meeting in the same conference room. The collective has no idea that the other group has knowledge of this!!!!! Excellent

This pictures was from sellsbrothers.com. There is also some cool Visual Studio .NET related tools there. Thanks to Merc for showing me this site!Artist: ThursdayAlbum: Five Stories FallingSong: Standing on the Edge of SummerIn this roomI'm sitting by your sideCuz it rains for hours and the phone is off its hookStanding on the edgeCasting lots to set me upBefore you knock me downSummer's edge and drown meBetting on our own livesMaking up for all time we lost.In this house of cardsWe're all holding hearts and spades(one breath, one step could knock it all down)You lead with your eyes and you give it away(design design to cut from the clouds)When the people you love get lost in the shuffle(when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts)Let it go and then you foldSo we stay on the open roadWe drive for hours and still no end in sight at allDriving in your carMiss the stop signFall in loveJust to get knocked downSummer's edge and drown meBetting on our own livesMaking up for all time we lostIn this house of cardsWe're all holding hearts and spades(one breath, one step could knock it all down)But you lead with your eyes and you give it away(design design to cut from the clouds)When the people you love get lost in the shuffle(when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts)Let it go and then you foldPull your punches and burn with your cigarettesPulled like a punch and burn like a cigaretteForever.....

Thanks to the honkey!!! On showing me this link!!

"...whoever you are, whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It's your mission on earth. To realize one's Personal Legend is a person's only real obligation." -- "The Alchemist", Paulo Coelho

I found this one website today that had about 8 free pdf formatted open source books!

When work becomes "just a job", I think there's something wrong. Perhaps it's the ultra stressed out people I work with or something. I can't figure it out. I will for my own sanity take it at face value, and always try to put a positive spin on the work related issues. I think we owe our work environment that much to at least keep it decent, if not fun. It's sad when people get a hair up their asses, and think they are God's gift to the world. Note to self: when ever promoted (i hope never) to a management position should keep close care as to what I am say and what bullshit is coming out of my mouth.

Just about 50 minutes till yaba daba doo time! Woohoo!!!! Can't wait!

After 8 years of marriage this couple didn't know they needed to have sex to procreate!!!!!!!! Whoa, just when I thought that society has taken a turn for the worse, there is a glimmer of hope out there.

Ugh office politics. I have the opportunity to jump groups, problem is there's a huge amount of hatred among the groups. I have no idea as to what I'm going to do. I mean I could just sit here stay bent over and take it, or I could talk to my manager and express my interest in moving groups. Then there's the option of being able to just look at my manager straight in the eye (this is of course after he rejects my needs) and hand in my resignation. I doubt i'll be that dramatic. I probably won't resign either. I'll be like...."OK"....walks back to cube, and gets to work.

That was one of the greatest moments i've ever witnessed!!! EVER!

There's no need to say more! Ugh cube life was great today! Just kidding :-) Anyways it looks like I'm going to be for yet another couple of hours today. We'll see how it all pans out.

The office MILF:Awesome reflection shot:A small how to that Drew has written for all of us cigar newbies:

So, last night I went out with a few old acquaintances, and then of course one non-acquaintance. It was interesting. We ate dinner at "Pasta?" it's a Italian restaurant. When I get the time I'll post the pics, and a couple of accidental videos. For the most part people mature, change, adapt, (call it evolution) evolve like the animals we are. What I really don't like is talking about high school. Cause it's old, and I particularly didn't "bond" with the people there, just the really close friends I had. Perhaps with each major step in my life I learn more and more to let go of close friends, and move on to a more independent individual. It really does suck, but perhaps it's like writing an application where there's SO much bloat, and then you set out to re-write the code and make it lean and fast. I think that's where I'm going in my evolution, getting rid of dependencies that really are bloat, and streamlining my wants and needs to become the ultimate efficient animal? Problem is a little bloat never hurt anyone. I mean, one cannot go to long with any social interaction, nor just staying indoors and not doing a damned thing, but program or sit. That's just wrong. But lately it seems that going to the gym, running, biking, basketball and just being active is more than enough of a balance. Let alone a good consumption of time, when mixed in with work and proper rest.

If it weren't for this device the day would drag on so much longer!A cool pic taken at "foo camp" of a co-founder of Google Sergey Brin.

If I can attend this camp, I would probably die. Everyone went to it last year even Google's Founder, and of course Nat Friedman.nat friedman

Remember that one scene at the beginning of the flinstones, where Fred gets off of work, cause that prehistoric horn/bell rings. That's the way I feel right now!

Pondering weather or not to make the effort to submit, to some jobs closer to back home. This would be one of the most craziest things I've ever done. Because I'm on my own and would be completely backing myself in this venture. I honestly feel I should still wait a couple of more months just to be safe.

Bitch, Bitch, Bitch that's all this one senior engineer does. So negative. I hate it. If it's not done her way, it's the highway. Note to self: If ever accept position as a senior level engineer in charge of a project, be more positive but communicate the negatives properly. I think communication on the part of most senior people is a must. And the fact that the more power they have the more they are likely to have the inverse of their age! I swear on any given day she'll bash someone out in the open verbally. It's like dude, you get to have that fucking "senior" word before your title on your business card, fucking act like it. Stop being a bitch and come on.

This Article is interesting and talks about the future of linux on the desktop, and what hurdles are ahead. Either this is complete rant, or some real fortune telling. I don't think either desktop should win, I think it should be a matter of practicality. Some people like to drive hybrids, others like to drive SUV's. It's a matter of purpose. I think this whole competition thing is great for the consumer no matter what. And it will drive the cost of Windows either up or down. Depending on how fast M$ can come to market with something that really turns heads, is secure, and is not bug infested. Which is something the redmond people have had problems with!

This was fun, I was experimenting with my new tool last night. I swear when I was sanding down part of that picture frame/shadow box it sounded like i was a dentist drilling into someone's teeth! That's all for now!

This is the way I honestly feel, unfortuately I have to be fake it and be quiet at work, so that people don't know that I feel like this. That is what screws me up the most about working here. It bites. And i'm completely frustrated with the work i'm doing. It's like i'm so contrained, I must do as others want, so I completely just become a code slave. I don't think this is how I want to be doing things. Perhaps it's time for a change? I hate leaving a place cause then you have to feel like a butthead and go through the whole "going away party" and all of that. I hate that. It sucks, I remember not wanting to do that at JPL, but for some ordain reason I was forced into doing that by my manager. Perhaps i'm just having a bad day, then again how many days need to feel like this?

So lately I've been working on Project Antislacker, things seems to be maturing quite quickly, we have a couple of ultra stable servers. And they seem to be configured flawlessly now. Been writing some documents that can be helpful to people that will join the Antislacker Network. Marathon Training has been great, started to cross-train more, and that's coming along quite nicely. Work has been complete hell. There's a ton of crap going on, and I've been feeling quite stressed out.

Alright I've known of Sting, and the band he was apart of in the 80's called "The Police". Sure I've heard Puff Daddy remix "Every Breath You Take." But I've never really listened to Sting's songs. I've heard them, but never really payed much attention. I've discovered that some of his songs are pretty cool. Some of them have this Reggae vibe to them. Very cool. I'd have to say right now that "Roxanne", "So Lonely", "Don't Stand So Close to Me", "Walking On the Moon", "Can't Stand Losing You", and "Message In A Bottle". Are going on the running play-list. Should make for some good mileage.