I've never felt more alive, at any one moment in my life, than how I feel right now. Maybe it's age, maybe it's just the fact that there's a lot more data to look back on, and say, "Yes, I'm here cause this is my choice." There are many reasons for this, and unfortunately the web is a whole lot smaller than it used to be, and this blog isn't as anonymous as it used to be. It's extremely hard to stay what I like to call, "punk rock." I have really fallen off my wagon, I stopped blogging about the experiences and circumstances that I was going through. I'm sure some of you out there really enjoyed it. Some of you have even called me out on it (Thank You!). And for the lack of that type of content my deepest apologies. What has worried me the most is future employers reading about your experiences in life, and forming a very bad impression. But that's not "punk rock," is it? As we grow older we loose touch with who we used to be, and we compensate for our shortcommings, that combined with adult peer pressure we end up like lemmings. That's "selling out." I think for a period of time, I can honestly say, "I sold out." Hell, I even think it's border line "prostitution." It's pretty funny, I'll admit it. Self realization is a mother fucker. But here I am, something completely taken apart, and I'm trying to figure out where all the pieces went.
Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just get better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.Steve Jobs
